Why Living for Others Keeps Me Going

By Mia Maysack, PNN Columnist

While I am “the strong one” that so many look up to and confide in about their hardships and struggles, there aren't many people that I can reach out to in hopes of receiving the same sort of consideration, counsel or support.

I once expressed to a certified professional that one of the main reasons I'm still in existence is for the sake of other people. They looked at me – perplexed -- and proceeded to explain how that was an “unhealthy” approach to life. My reaction was to smirk, because there was obviously no way in hell this individual could begin relating to, let alone understand, what I was saying.

The vast majority of my experiences with therapy have been that the provider and I may as well have been speaking different languages.

Repeatedly, I'm confronted by individuals who say things such as:

“It's my kids who keep me going!”

“I do it all for them! They are my reason for living! I didn't know love or the point of life until I had children!”

I honor all of that to the best of my ability, but also wonder. What’s the difference between that mindset and the point that I made with the therapist?  There isn't one -- other than the fact my motivation doesn't come from having children, but rather from the brokenness of our world as a whole.

What do I mean when I say I live for the sake of others?  It's that I'm equipped with such a deep sense of compassionate empathy that I am able to hold the edges for people who ordinarily do not feel heard or seen. This somehow cultivates the illusion that I'm superhuman, and don’t need to be seen or heard myself.

Just because some of us don't outwardly complain or vent doesn't mean we have it all together, that everything is easy, or that we ourselves aren't drowning in a sea of despair.

Most people wouldn't know how to handle it, if I shared with them the reality of what my life is truly like. They wouldn't know how to respond if I told them that just getting out of bed for me is like running a marathon. Or if I described the pain and torment in my physical body, which keeps me away from things that I want to do and bring me a sense of meaning, joy and purpose.

They certainly don't know how to handle it when the person they depend on reveals that they're beginning to crumble under the weight life has forced them to carry. Anytime that I've attempted to confide in someone, there are three things that occur:

1. They aren't listening to actually hear you, but are simply awaiting their turn to speak -- which usually involves some sort of comparison between your situations, with a hinted suggestion that their situation is far worse than yours.

2. You make them uncomfortable by expressing yourself authentically. They don't know what to do or say, which often translates into doing or saying not much of anything.

3. It causes them major concern and worry, to the point that I then have to reassure the people I sought comfort from that I’m okay.

It has become easier to remain silent. That is why we suffer. That is what’s killing us.

I have zero questions in my mind as to why someone makes the decision to die. That doesn’t mean condoning or promoting it. I simply comprehend the endless reasons why life can be so tiring and how a lifetime of exhaustion can get old -- to the point where someone no longer wishes to go onward.

I believe in everyone's ability to choose and proceed with what's best or right for them, whether I agree or understand it. I've lost countless loved ones and that has been sufficient reason for me not to check out. I can't do it because so-and-so did. I want to carry on so they continue to live through me.

Although I still feel that way most of the time, it needs to be understood how draining it is. Those of us who've managed to cling to an optimistic viewpoint aren't free from our own demons. We slay them daily for the sake of showing up for you and yours.

Mia Maysack lives with chronic migraine, cluster headache and fibromyalgia. She is the founder of Keepin’ Our Heads Up, a Facebook advocacy and support group, and Peace & Love, a wellness and life coaching practice for the chronically ill. 

Woman Files Civil Rights Lawsuit Over Denial of Pain Treatment

By Madora Pennington, PNN Columnist

In September of 2022, millions watched Tara Rule’s emotional video on TikTok, about a doctor who refused to give her a non-narcotic pain medication because it might cause birth defects. The doctor would not even name the drug, even though Rule told him she has no intention of having children because she has Ehler's Danlos syndrome (EDS), a genetic disorder that causes severe health issues.

The 32-year old Rule recently filed a civil rights lawsuit to better establish the illegality of refusing medical treatment to women simply because they are of childbearing age.

Rule’s fight began when neurologist Jonathan Braiman, MD, steered her away from an effective treatment for her agonizing cluster migraines, a common symptom of EDS. According to Yale Medical School, cluster headaches can hurt more than childbirth.

When Rule realized she was being discriminated against by her doctor, she surreptitiously switched on her cell phone to record their discussion, which is legal in New York state. 

Brainman can be heard in the recording asking Rule intrusive questions about her sex life, while ignoring her answers. Rule explained that she was already on a medication that can cause birth defects -- known as teratogenic drug -- and wasn't well enough to have children anyway.

Brainman patronizingly told her she might change her mind if she were to become pregnant. He recommended that she bring in her boyfriend to consent to any treatment that might cause birth defects. Rule left without getting the pain relief she needed for her migraines.

In the parking lot of Albany Medical Center, where the appointment took place, a distraught and tearful Rule made the video and posted it online. Her raw emotion and disturbing story quickly went viral, not only on social media, but in news stories.

In her lawsuit against Braiman and Albany Medical, Rule alleges she was retaliated against by the hospital system. Rule says she was ejected from an unaffiliated urgent care center because Albany Medical had told other hospitals not to treat her. She believes this was a violation of her medical privacy.  

Rule suspects she was blacklisted by other providers in her area. She tried to make an appointment with another neurologist, but was told she was “not an appropriate patient.” Her primary care provider sent a back-dated letter to Rule and her mother saying he was dismissing them as patients. That doctor gave no valid reason for the patient abandonment.

TARA RULE (TIKTOK)

Rule is on disability and lives on less than $1,000 per month. Being banned as a patient is a real hardship.

“Now I have to go to Connecticut to see physicians in a different hospital system. Or travel three and a half hours to New York City. With hotels and gas, it’s very hard. Some of these specialists outside the state are not fully covered by my insurance,” Rule said.

Traveling is made more complicated because Rule can’t stay just anywhere — she needs accessible hotel rooms. And she is accumulating thousands of dollars in debt.

After posting her video, Rule heard from many other patients who have also been discriminated against by their doctors. She felt motivated to find out what legal remedies existed.

With legal guidance, Rule wrote the civil rights complaint herself in what is known as a “federal question” lawsuit, an action that seeks to clarify a constitutional issue in US federal court. Rule has been advised that the medical care she sought does not fall under “conscience protections,” which allow doctors to refuse treatment on religious or moral grounds.  

In preparation for her lawsuit, Rule obtained her medical and insurance records, to help prove that privacy violations occurred. She discovered she had been billed for services not received, and believes her medical records were forged.

Albany Medical did not respond to a request for comment.

Rule’s lawsuit is potentially precedent-setting. It marks the first federal question case against a medical provider for refusing to provide teratogenic drugs because a woman is of “childbearing age.” Refusing to give routine medical care because a patient might get pregnant is discrimination. Patients cannot be forced into unnecessary restraints on their care.

"I am prepared for whatever happens,” says Rule, who is hopeful her lawsuit will help prevent other patients from being discriminated against by their doctors. 

Madora Pennington is the author of the blog LessFlexible.com about her life with Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome. She graduated from UC Berkeley with minors in Journalism and Disability Studies. 

How to Advocate With the News Media

By Barby Ingle, PNN Columnist 

So many in the chronic pain community wonder how to share their stories with the news media and connect with reporters. I have been doing that for years as a patient advocate, creating newsworthy content that helps educate the public about the issues we face.

The media are a powerful tool for advocacy because they can help you reach a larger audience and get your message out there. Networking with different media outlets has allowed me to spread my advocacy message further and make a real impact. I have built relationships with the media and gained access to publications I never had before. 

For example, I researched all of the major news outlets in Arizona, where I live, and learned who the producers, publishers and health writers are. I then connected and introduced myself to each of them.

Whenever I have a significant news item in the chronic pain or rare disease community that affects Arizonans, I reach out. Even when I do not have a specific story to pitch, I stay in touch. That helps to keep me in their minds. When they have a new story or need to verify something, they contact me for comment and to confirm the information. 

Media outlets can help you reach your target audience and spread the word about patient issues, products, services and disease-specific information. The more information we share effectively, the better access we’ll have to treatment. Media can be a friend or foe. We must learn to use them to get others involved.

We must also be mindful of our message and portrayal in the media, ensuring the information we provide is accurate and that the story is told to benefit our cause. We should also be prepared for any potential negative backlash from media campaigns. Choosing bipartisan, non-political topics, such as promoting individualized care and understanding how our medical system works can avoid this. 

We must also remain vigilant and aware of misinformation and bias in the media. It is essential to consider the impact of our message and how different communities may perceive it. 

Sharing Your Message

How can you share your message through the media to make a difference? Focus on issues that resonate with their audience and yours. Be bold in your advocacy approach. Feel free to challenge the status quo and use the media to highlight critical issues.

You can use a variety of mediums to reach your target audience. Be open to sharing on television, radio, newspapers, magazines, online, and in support groups. 

Communicate your message creatively to build interest in topics. You will need to offer something “new” to the media and be prepared to discuss your subject from multiple points of view, so that it connects with more people. Monitor the response to your message and adjust accordingly. Follow up and ensure the right message is heard.

Different people have different interests and perspectives. It's essential to tailor your message to specific groups of people so that they can understand and appreciate what you have to say. 

A 60-second message I could leave for a local news reporter might go something like this:

“Hello. I am Barby Ingle, a health advocate and chronic disease patient with multiple rare diseases. I live in Gold Canyon, AZ, and am excited to be working with my state senator on health bill SB1234.

I live with a rare pain condition called Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy. It has affected every aspect of my life: financial, social, family and access to care. 2.9 million Arizonans live with a condition that involves pain; here in our district, approximately 150,000 are affected.

SB1234 is designed to help patients like me get better access to proper and timely care. I would love to set up a time to speak with you in detail or I can come in for an interview or live segment. I will email you a copy of the bill and supporting details. Please be on the watch for it in the next few minutes.

Feel free to call me back or email me to schedule a meeting. I look forward to hearing from you or one of your staff members soon. Thanks!” 

You should know the audience or readership of the media outlet you work with. That will help you understand what approach to take with your messaging and takeaways for that audience. It will make your pitch stronger, and give readers and viewers an opportunity to act on it. Be creative in your approach and use various media platforms. 

Additionally, by monitoring the response, you can identify which messages are resonating and which may need further adjustments. Following up with your audience shows that you care and are invested in the conversation.

Making or sharing a video, podcast or online post to explain your topic further is also possible. Don't just do the media as a one-and-done -- share it on social media to reach a wider audience.

To conclude, we must be willing to engage with the news media and the public to ensure our message is heard. The media can give the pain community the attention needed to spread a message of need.

Be it a lack of individualized care, a decision that negatively affects the pain community, or a desire for an amended state/federal law, our voices can be used to make change and make a difference in the lives of the patients. Ultimately, we are responsible for accurately communicating our message to the press and the public. 

Barby Ingle is a reality TV personality living with multiple rare and chronic diseases. She is a chronic pain educator, patient advocate, motivational speaker, and best-selling author on pain topics. You can follow Barby at www.barbyingle.com. 

There Is Help Out There, But You Have Look For It

By Ann Marie Gaudon, PNN Columnist

As a patient, you strive to be heard. Nowhere is this truer than when your medical issues are chronic and complex. However, when your physicians dismiss, minimize, invalidate, and/or ignore what you say, this can lead to a misdiagnosis or lack of diagnosis – which can lead to your condition getting worse.

Physicians rely on test results, but what if the test is an epic failure? What if there is no test at all to diagnose you?

Medical providers can erroneously blame your suffering on your age, race, sexuality, gender, weight or other factors that have nothing to do with your complaint. It’s also not uncommon for a physician to tell a patient that there is nothing at all wrong with them and that it’s essentially “all in their head.”

Even if your symptoms do not resolve, further testing may not be offered. You may not be listened to or you may have your symptoms downplayed.

I learned that the hard way after experiencing a significant back injury in 2017. I thought I was going to be disabled forever. My own medical system could not help me. I was told I had to wait six weeks for an appointment and if I was still in pain then, an MRI would be ordered.

The MRI was ordered and the imaging showed a significant injury. But my general practitioner could offer no help aside from a mild muscle relaxant. I was referred to an orthopedic surgeon who could also offer no help. I never considered surgery – truth be told it terrified me – but I was looking for any treatment to help myself heal.

Fate brought me to a CBC radio interview with Stuart McGill, PhD, Professor Emeritus at the University of Waterloo. I immediately bought McGill’s book “Back Mechanic” and started my healing journey with one of his master clinicians.

I learned the medical system knows virtually nothing about the injury I had and had no way to help me heal from it.

Fast forward six years. Here I am “back” to back pain; limping and having significant pain in my upper right leg. I found out that I had been engaging in activity that I should not have been (weight lifting) and not doing enough to strengthen my core.

Now a loss of height and stiffness in my spinal joints are giving me much grief. My L4 and L5 have lost their strength due to injury, and the lower joint L3 is feeling the lack of support.

The entire point of this column is to show you the difference between seeing a physician who has no knowledge and relies on unreliable tests, and finding and seeing someone who has the essential knowledge to help you heal.

Take a look for yourself. Remember, my symptoms were lower back pain, upper right leg pain and a limp. Here is a copy of my recent MRI report, which is the only test my GP has ordered. Also, here is a copy of my personalized treatment recommendations from Professor McGill, which I use along with his book. Notice anything different between these two assessments?

This difference means everything! Why? Because one is antiseptic, hopeless and sounds like my pain was of my own doing. The other offers the reason for the pain, plus exercise and treatment options I can do to make it better.

My lapse in keeping up with the exercises necessary to protect my spine was slow and happened over time. I’m not sure that I even noticed. By the time I did, I had already irritated my compromised spine.

If I want to be free of back pain, I will always have to do protective exercises. I will always have to take care. This is of little consequence, considering that pain and disability are the alternative.

Thank you, Professor McGill for being the compassionate and skilled researcher that you are. There are so many of us in need of real help with our back injuries. I am so grateful for you and your life’s work.

Here is what I have learned. Often there is a practitioner who is knowledgeable and skilled in helping you with a complex and chronic condition. But the only way I have found these people is by accident or by word of mouth. I don’t see this changing anytime soon.

Don’t give up hope and be prepared to investigate your options!

Ann Marie Gaudon is a registered social worker and psychotherapist in the Waterloo region of Ontario, Canada with a specialty in chronic pain management.  She has been a chronic pain patient for over 30 years and works part-time as her health allows. For more information about Ann Marie's counseling services, visit her website. 

Is Your Doctor a Master or Servant?

By Carol Levy, PNN Columnist

Recently, I heard a doctor on TV say something that seems to be common sense: a doctor must be the servant of his patient and not the master. The Hippocratic Oath says as much, that a doctor should be “a servant of people.”

Though the wording is old-fashioned, the point is well taken. I have experienced doctors trying to act as masters, not servants.

I’ll tell a doctor all of my symptoms, only to have her concentrate on one or two. Then she makes her pronouncement: “This is my diagnosis. This is the treatment I am prescribing.”

If I ask, “What about my other symptoms?” I’ll be dismissed.

“Try the treatment and if it’s not better, come back in six weeks.”

There’s no room for discussion. That’s the way a master would talk to a servant.

Some patients think they are the masters. They’ll say, “No you're wrong. I need and will only accept this medication or treatment.”

It seems many chronic pain patients, more so than others, are of two beliefs: we want the doctor to help us, to diagnose our condition and to end our pain to the best of their ability. That makes them somewhat our master.

But many of us also think we should be the master of the doctor when it comes to what he will give us to end our pain: “I want this drug, this dosage, and this number of pills.”'

I almost never hear someone say, “The doctor refuses to give me the test I want” or “She won't refer me to the specialist I want to see.” Pain patients tend to want those decisions left to the doctor.

In recent years, a major loss for doctors is their ability to be their own masters when it comes to prescribing pain medication, specifically opioids.

The best example I have of this is my own experience from decades ago. My ophthalmologist understood that my trigeminal neuralgia pain was unmanageable. He had nothing to offer that would completely eliminate my facial pain, but he wanted to at least mitigate it. He gave me with a prescription for an 8-ounce bottle of Tincture of Opium.

The first pharmacy I went to couldn't fill it because they didn't carry opium. But the pharmacist didn't look askance at me or the prescription. The second pharmacist I saw also gave me no debate, no questions, and no dirty or suspicious looks. Within 10 minutes, I left the pharmacy with a bottle of opium in my purse.

Of course, we all know that could never happen now.  I don't even know if a doctor can write a prescription for opium anymore. It is hard to be a master of the patient when your hands are tied, and you fear losing your livelihood, freedom or both.

When it comes to opioids, we cannot be masters of our doctor, no matter how much we may want to be. We can't insist that we need an opioid, when by law or fear, a doctor won’t comply.

What we need to accept is that neither doctor or patient should be master or servant of the other. Some doctors may not accept this and some patients may not want it, but the best relationship we can have with our medical providers is a partnership.

Doctors need to do a better job explaining why they prescribe something. And, if it is an opioid, why the amount and dosage is less than what we may want.  And we, as patients, need to understand that we can’t insist on what a doctor is unwilling to provide.

For partnerships to work, both sides need to come to a mutual understanding of what can and can't be done. Sometimes that means being disappointed. But disappointment that is based on mutual acceptance and respect can help mitigate the negative, allowing for a much better relationship.

Carol Jay Levy has lived with trigeminal neuralgia, a chronic facial pain disorder, for over 30 years. She is the author of “A Pained Life, A Chronic Pain Journey.”  Carol is the moderator of the Facebook support group “Women in Pain Awareness.” Her blog “The Pained Life” can be found here.

Lyme Disease: How a Bacteria Plays Havoc with Immune Systems

By Dr. Jenny Wachter, University of Saskatchewan

Lyme disease is the leading vector-borne disease — meaning diseases that are transmitted to humans from another organism like a tick or mosquito — in North America and Europe.

New human cases are estimated at over 400,000 in the United States each year. Canada has experienced a drastic increase in human cases, from 266 cases in 2011 to 3,147 in 2021, as the habitat of its vector, a tick, expands north.

The initial symptoms of human Lyme disease can be vague, such as fever, headache, fatigue and often rash. It is a potentially serious condition that can affect multiple systems in the body — including the heart, nervous system and joints — and can become a chronic illness.

Lyme disease is caused by a unique, spiral-shaped (spirochete) bacterium called Borrelia burgdorferi. B. burgdorferi cannot survive in the environment on its own. For survival and transmission, it requires susceptible hosts (usually small mammals or birds) and a specific vector: the black-legged tick, also called the deer tick.

Evading the Immune System

B. burgdorferi must survive extremely diverse conditions over the course of its transmission and infection cycle: from host to tick vector, and then into new hosts.

This bacterium senses and responds to its surroundings, most notably by modifying its appearance by changing the proteins on its outer surface to help it survive in either the tick or the host.

When a tick infected by B. burgdorferi bites and feeds on a vertebrate host, it provides a signal for the bacteria to switch its proteins to those required to infect the host, and to begin migrating through the tick and into the bite site. This process takes between 36 and 72 hours.

However, many of these proteins are recognized by the host as foreign, and the host’s immune system works to try to clear the infection. This includes a strong, antibody response targeted against B. burgdorferi.

Despite these immune responses, B. burgdorferi is able to cause long-term infections. In natural host reservoirs — the animals that the bacterium usually finds itself in via tick bites, such as small rodents — these infections do not cause diseases like those seen in humans and other non-natural reservoirs.

In fact, the bacteria itself does not produce any products that would be toxic to its hosts, either natural or non-natural. Yet chronic infection in humans can lead to Lyme neuroborreliosis, carditis and Lyme arthritis.

How then, are these bacteria able to cause such a devastating disease in humans and other animals, but not in their natural host reservoirs?

While there is still much to learn about B. burgdorferi, we know of several factors that play a role in the range of disease it causes. These include:

• its genetic make-up,

• its ability to access various tissues (such as the joints, heart and nervous system) due to its ability to move around (motility), and

• the immune response of the host.

Apart from motility, B. burgdorferi also protects itself from the strong B. burgdorferi-specific targeted antibody response of its host’s immune system by changing the appearance of the main outer surface protein expressed during persistent infection in a process called antigenic variation.

In addition to antigenic variation, B. burgdorferi bacteria can also change their DNA by exchanging genetic information, a process also known as gene transfer. This process allows these bacteria to further alter their appearance during infection to avoid the host immune system.

This process works so well that these B. burgdorferi bacteria appear different enough to allow re-infection or even co-infection (where multiple strains of B. burgdorferi infect a single host at the same time) of a vertebrate host, like a mouse or a human, despite the presence of specific antibodies to fight the bacterium.

In fact, in nature, the majority of host reservoirs and the ticks that carry the bacterium are infected with multiple strains of B. burgdorferi. The ability of B. burgdorferi to reinfect and co-infect both ticks and hosts increases the spread of the bacteria in the environment as well as the chances that humans will encounter Lyme disease.

Human Cases of Lyme Disease Are Increasing

As a vector-borne pathogen, B. burgdorferi only infects individuals that are bitten by an infected tick. It is not transmitted from person to person.

Environments that support black-legged/deer ticks are at risk of harbouring B. burgdorferi. In North America, these species of ticks are widely distributed throughout the eastern and midwestern United States. Recent geographic expansion to the north is increasing the prevalence of Lyme disease in Canada.

The increase of human Lyme disease cases highlights the failure of existing preventive strategies — such as minimizing exposure to tick habitats, performing diligent tick checks, and wearing suitable clothing when performing activities in known tick habitats — and emphasizes the need for an effective human vaccine.

At Vaccine and Infectious Disease Organization at the University of Saskatchewan, we are taking a One Health approach by recognizing that human health is closely related to the health of animals and the shared environment. We are investigating the role of B. burgdorferi, ticks, and susceptible animals on the spread and survival of the Lyme disease bacterium.

It is important to mimic the natural infectious cycle as much as possible when identifying potential vaccine and drug targets. This is because the way host animals are infected (for example, artificial needle infection or natural tick bite) can produce drastic differences in the resulting infection.

Additionally, despite the prevalence of this disease, there are still many aspects of the infectious cycle that remain unknown due to the uniqueness of B. burgdorferi and a lack of knowledge about the tick vector.

For example, we recently learned that a B. burgdorferi protein is responsible for regulating the components necessary for the bacterium to infect vertebrates, including humans. The absence of this protein, among other things, leads to the death of B. burgdorferi in ticks, making it an exciting target for research investigation.

By learning more about the molecular mechanisms that change or reduce the severity of the disease caused by this bacterium, we can identify new targets for the prevention of human Lyme disease. 

Jenny Wachter, PhD, is a research scientist and adjunct professor at University of Saskatchewan.

This article originally appeared in The Conversation and is republished with permission.

Understanding the Difference Between Chronic Pain and Intractable Pain

By Dr. Forest Tennant, PNN Columnist  

The difference between simple chronic pain and intractable pain (IP) is what is known as pathologic sympathetic overdrive. This major medical complication is characterized by excessive electrical activity in the body's sympathetic nervous system. Excess electricity causes hyperarousal and pathologic overactivity of the sympathetic nervous system, which controls the body’s stress response. A comprehensive grasp of this complication is crucial for effective treatment.

Pathologic complication is the root cause of the disability, profound suffering and shortened lifespan often caused by intractable pain. Even though I recognized and published the difference between chronic and intractable pain in the Western Journal of Medicine over 20 years ago, it is still poorly understood in the mainstream medical practices of today. This contributes greatly to the undertreatment and mistreatment of IP patients.

The severe, constant and disabling pain of IP causes anatomical defects in the brain, which leads the cells in the brain to generate excess electricity. This is how pathologic sympathetic overdrive (PSO) starts. The brain must get rid of the excess electricity to prevent damage from the “burning” of brain tissue.

The brain rids itself of excess electricity by sending it into the sympathetic nervous system. This system is comprised of nerves that connect the brain to the heart, blood vessels, skin, lung and gastrointestinal system. The best-known neural connection in the network that connects the brain to bodily organs is the vagus nerve, but there are less known nerve connections in and along the spinal cord.

The “overdrive” of excess electricity produces a typical set of easily recognized symptoms and physical signs. These include an elevated pulse rate (tachycardia), high blood pressure, cold extremities (sometimes exhibiting a bluish hue), goosebumps, dilated pupils, and hyperactive reflexes. Another common symptom is temperature spikes and flushing, often followed by chills.

Amazingly, while the nation persistently clamors about the importance of controlling blood pressure, making Americans very aware that hypertension leads to serious medical conditions and is one of the leading causes of death in the U.S., I cannot identify a single lay magazine or medical journal that even refers to the undeniable correlation between severe, unmanaged pain and high blood pressure.  Strangely, there is also a conspicuous absence of discussions even in medical publications about the necessity of adequate pain management to reduce blood pressure.

Complications Caused by Intractable Pain

PSO interferes with normal respiratory function. The lungs may not expand and bring in the normal level of oxygen, and carbon dioxide may elevate in the blood. Inadequate oxygenation may lead to lethargy, fatigue, poor motivation, muscle weakness and mental impairment.

An IP patient’s ability to sleep, and especially achieving adequate REM sleep, is greatly reduced by PSO.  The hazards of inadequate sleep are well-known: fatigue, depression, amotivation, poor mental activity, and hormone imbalances. A tragic misunderstanding is the belief that somehow a lack of sleep is better than taking a bedtime sedative. This notion lacks any scientific merit.

There are lesser known but other serious and debilitating sequalae of PSO. The gastrointestinal system becomes so impaired by PSO to the point that loss of appetite, malabsorption (nutrients do not assimilate) and malnutrition is present in essentially all IP patients. The disturbed nutritional metabolic deficits can lead to either significant weight gain or loss. Constipation and diarrhea will often alternate, while stomach pain and bloating are routine. Patients are often misdiagnosed as having irritable bowel syndrome (IBS), with treatment that gives no consideration that bowel symptoms will persist without control of the underlying IP.

PSO has a significant impact on the endocrine system, similar to the body's "fight or flight" response during moments of stress. With IP the stress is constant. This physiological response involves an increase in adrenaline and cortisone levels in the bloodstream. Normally, this response to stress is temporary, allowing the adrenal and pituitary glands to recover and remain intact. But with the constant pain and electrical overdrive of IP, the glands hypertrophy (enlarge abnormally) trying to keep up their hormonal output to protect the body.

Unfortunately, the glands will often deplete. IP patients have died due to adrenal failure as the glands could not produce enough cortisone and adrenaline to maintain life. PSO tends to especially cause the pituitary gland to enlarge. Some uninformed surgeons have “removed the pituitary tumor” without understanding the root cause of the enlargement, or the imperative need to manage pain.

If PSO goes on long enough, and the pituitary and adrenal glands exhaust or wear out, testosterone and estradiol will deplete. While most people are aware of the impact of such depletion on libido and menstrual functions, what many medical practitioners miss is the critical role these hormones play in tissue healing, pain reduction, and various mental functions.

Since PSO raises cortisone for as long as one has IP, calcium is extracted from bones and teeth. Osteoporosis may develop and teeth may deteriorate. Sudden loss of a tooth is common in IP as is chronic dental cavities.

PSO in an adult IP patient will often cause some level of adult attention deficit disorder (ADD/ADHD), which is the exact clinical syndrome that occurs in a child with hyperactivity or attention deficit disorder. Furthermore, when the IP patient develops the same “attention deficits,” they will need the same medications that a child does to normalize attention span, carry out the 3R’s (“reading, riting, rithmetic”), and activities of daily living.

The mental aberrations caused by IP, unless treated with today’s hyperactivity medications (Ritalin, Adderall), can be so debilitating that the IP patient can become a lonely, despondent invalid, who becomes expensive to care for and totally dependent on family and society. The medical profession’s rejection or dismissal of ADD/ADHD in IP patients can only be classified as blatant professional oversight.

Diagnosing Intractable Pain

It is essential to point out that a medical practitioner who understands PSO can distinguish an IP patient from a simple chronic pain patient with a 5-to-10-minute physical examination. For starters, the IP patient with PSO will show some abnormality of pulse-rate, blood pressure, temperature or breathing rate. Some reflexes will be hyperactive, and the pupil may be dilated.  Hands and feet will be cold to touch and may show a blue discoloration. Teeth will be missing and/or show a lot of decay. Mental activity and speech may be slow and deliberate. Movement also may be slow.

These physical signs correlated with the history and symptoms provided by the patient and family will easily and quickly nail down the presence of IP and PSO, without the need for blood tests or brain scans.

This essay is a call for all parties concerned to fully understand the difference between chronic pain and intractable pain with PSO. Every IP patient, family and medical practitioner must fully understand that PSO will cause dire complications. IP patients and their families need to recognize them and record their PSO manifestations and present them to their medical practitioners.

Sadly, this author cannot identify a single education effort by a recognized medical publication, organization or academic institution that has or is currently trying to educate on the obvious and blatant clinical manifestations of the sympathetic pathological complications of IP. Like most things in medical science and practice today, the demand and education must “start at the bottom and work up.”

Forest Tennant, MD, DrPH, is retired from clinical practice but continues his research on the treatment of intractable pain. To help patients and clinicians better understand intractable pain, the Tennant Foundation has launched a new website, IntractablePain.Org, where you can learn more about the conditions that cause intractable pain and their many complications.

The Tennant Foundation gives financial support to Pain News Network and sponsors PNN’s Patient Resources section.  

How Technology Could Improve Healthcare in Underserved Communities

By Barby Ingle, PNN Columnist 

This year I was fortunate to visit all 15 counties in Arizona, from large cities and rural areas to those considered “frontier” and tribal reservations. I talked to patients, providers and caregivers about the stress points in their access to healthcare. I was in towns with no EMS, no hospital, and no specialists.

Seeing these disparities in healthcare closeup was an eye-opener for me. Imagine being injured or needing surgery, and you must take a helicopter to get immediate care. It’s like living on another planet.  

We can ensure that underserved communities have equal access to healthcare services, regardless of location, by providing remote and rural areas with access to telemedicine. Although the ability to access the internet is still difficult in some areas, services like Elon Musk's Star Link are being utilized to improve healthcare no matter where you live. 

With the recent pandemic, we were able to utilize telemedicine more often and see advancements in digital health solutions. Healthcare professionals can now remotely diagnose, treat and monitor patients from a distance. But will relaxed telehealth rules continue in the same form now that the pandemic has ended? Many of the details are still being worked out.

Mobile applications and wearable devices enable patients to monitor their vital signs and share the data with providers, allowing for remote monitoring and proactive intervention. They can also empower patients to more closely monitor their own health, receive medical advice, and manage chronic conditions from their homes.

With the increased availability of internet connectivity and mobile networks, technology has the potential to revolutionize healthcare delivery and improve health outcomes in remote and underserved regions. Several steps can be taken to address the digital divide in healthcare between urban and rural areas.

First, it is crucial to educate individuals about the benefits of technology and digital health tools. Technology can reduce transportation barriers, provide on-demand health advice, and minimize the risk of exposure to infectious diseases by enabling patients to stay at home.

Second, partnerships between stakeholders, such as academia, the private sector and government can help narrow the digital divide by leveraging resources to place healthcare technology where it is most needed. By building awareness, partnerships and targeting resources, it will be possible to bridge the digital divide and ensure that all communities have access to healthcare technology.

Here are some specific steps that can be taken:

• Conduct a comprehensive needs assessment in underserved communities to understand their unique healthcare challenges, cultural context and technological requirements. A needs assessment can involve surveys, interviews and focus group discussions with community members, healthcare providers and other stakeholders.

• Engage community members, healthcare professionals, and technology experts in a co-design approach. This means collaborating with the community to design and develop healthcare technology solutions that align with its needs, preferences and capabilities.  

• Adopt a user-centered design approach to make sure healthcare technology is user friendly.  Involve people from underserved communities in testing and interface design to ensure the technology is accessible, culturally appropriate and easy to operate.

• Consider the affordability and sustainability of healthcare technology by addressing cost barriers. ensuring compatibility with low-resource settings, and developing tools that can operate with limited infrastructure or connectivity.

• Provide training and support for people to utilize healthcare technology effectively. The training should include digital literacy programs, capacity-building workshops, and ongoing technical assistance.  

By involving underserved communities in the design process, healthcare technology can be tailored to their specific needs, leading to increased adoption and improved healthcare outcomes. It is crucial to prioritize the needs of these communities to ensure that they are included in the design and development of healthcare technology. By doing so, we can create more effective and sustainable solutions that genuinely address the healthcare challenges faced by underserved communities.

I am grateful for the opportunity to talk to patients, providers and caregivers in Arizona, thanks to a grant from HealtheVoices, Respond & Rescue, KB Companies and the International Pain Foundation. I look forward to continuing to gather feedback from underserved communities nationwide. By listening to patients and understanding their unique healthcare challenges, we can work towards creating meaningful solutions that improve access to care and overall health outcomes. 

Barby Ingle is a reality TV personality living with multiple rare and chronic diseases. She is a chronic pain educator, patient advocate, motivational speaker, and best-selling author on pain topics. You can follow Barby at www.barbyingle.com. 

The National Opioid Settlement Is Causing Drug Shortages

By Pat Irving, Guest Columnist

I am a retired nurse with over 40 years of healthcare experience. The principal focus of my career was on healthcare regulations, risk management and patient safety.  My most recent position was as National Leader for Risk and Patient Safety for Kaiser Permanente. 

As a pain patient myself and the victim of a mandatory opioid taper, I was motivated to understand the reasons behind the many difficulties patients have getting opioids, anti-anxiety medications and other controlled substances. 

The goal of my research over the last several months is to help patients and their families understand the drastic changes in pain management that have occurred in recent years. While much of it is due to the CDC opioid guideline and the law enforcement crackdown on prescribers, the fallout from opioid litigation now plays a major role in our inability to get prescriptions filled.

As early as 2017, acting on the incorrect premise that prescription opioids were the primary cause for the opioid crisis, the National Association of Attorneys General began a legal assault on entities they believed were responsible for the “opioid crisis.”  This included opioid manufacturers, big chain pharmacies, and the three biggest wholesale distributors -- AmerisourceBergen, Cardinal Health, and McKesson.

On July 21, 2021, the Attorneys General announced that they had reached a $26 billion settlement with the three distributors and Johnson & Johnson, who agreed to make major changes in how they do business.  The intent was to improve the safety and oversight of prescription opioids, but the unintended consequences of the settlement have caused incalculable harm to patients with chronic pain and mental health disorders.

In addition to the monetary settlement, the three distributors agreed to substantially increase measures to identity suspicious orders from pharmacies for ten years.  The distributors, collectively known as “Injunctive Relief Distributors,” also established an independent clearinghouse to keep track of every shipment of opioids and other controlled substances to pharmacies.

Red Flags and Suspicious Orders

For reference, the 571-page settlement can be found at this link.  The most important section (Exhibit “P”) begins on page 478.  Among other things, it requires the distributors to collect from each pharmacy a list of their top prescribers for opioids and other “Highly Diverted Controlled Substances,” the number of prescriptions and doses they wrote, their DEA registration number, address and medical specialty.

You may notice several other things.  Many of the restrictions came directly out of DEA regulations.  For example, there is language about “Red Flags” and “Suspicious Orders,” the latter being “orders of unusual size, orders deviating substantially from a normal pattern, and orders of unusual frequency.”

Other potential red flags include patients paying for a prescription in cash and “out-of-area” patients with prescribing doctors from a zip code that’s 50 miles or more from the pharmacy. 

If a pharmacy customer has an excessive number of suspicious orders or “unresolved Red Flag activity,” it risks being “terminated” from receiving further controlled substances – which would effectively put the pharmacy out of business: 

“In the event that an Injunctive Relief Distributor identifies one or more unresolved Red Flags or other information indicative of potential diversion of Controlled Substances through the onboarding process or otherwise, the Injunctive Relief Distributor shall refrain from selling Controlled Substances to the potential Customer pending additional due diligence.”

It is easy to see why the settlement has made pharmacists more hesitant, even fearful, about filling orders that might be suspicious. 

Under federal law, pharmacists already had a “corresponding authority” to decide whether a prescription is suspicious and if it should be filled. Whereas before a pharmacist might call a prescriber to double check on a prescription and the reasons for it, under the settlement a pharmacist may err on the side of caution and not fill the prescription at all.

To make the situation worse, the definitions of “suspicious orders” are purposely vague, and may be interpreted in the strictest way possible.  For example, since the CDC guideline recommends that physicians “should carefully evaluate” increasing doses above 50 morphine milligram equivalents (MME), the distributor or pharmacy may see that as hard limit, not a suggestion.  

And because the CDC guideline urges caution when prescribing opioids and benzodiazepines together, that may be another hard stop on a prescription, regardless of how long or how safely a patient was managed on these medications. There may be serious consequences for the prescribing physician as well, who could be reported to state authorities and the DEA if they have too many suspicious prescriptions.

Medication Thresholds 

The injunction also brought with it medication “thresholds.”  Unlike the annual DEA production quotas which are imposed on drug makers nationwide, the settlement thresholds are very specific to each pharmacy or pharmacy chain. It limits the total volume of a controlled substance that a pharmacy may receive in any given month, quarter and year.  These threshold limits, are developed by the distributor using a statistical algorithm of their own design. 

Once a pharmacy has exceeded its particular threshold, it is unable to obtain additional medication in that drug category. Physicians and patients have no way of knowing if they are the unlucky ones to have exceeded a pharmacy’s threshold.  For many patients, this means being cutoff cold turkey, waiting another month, or having a prescription only partially filled – essentially a forced taper.

Many health plans talk about their concern for patient safety, but there is often a lack of information given to patients about the known risks of tapering, especially for “legacy” patients who have been on prescribed opioids for an extended period, and who were stable and doing well. There is often no discussion with the tapered patient on the possibility of withdrawal, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, depression, and unmanaged pain. 

The patient population most affected by the distributors’ settlement are either disabled, seniors or both.  This is the very population that has difficulty accessing alternative pain therapies such as acupuncture or injections, and in many cases are alone and homebound. It has been almost impossible to get attention for this segment of the population that needs the most support. 

There has been no strong response to the settlement and resulting drug shortages from the Health and Human Services Administration, DEA, CDC, or FDA.  There has also been a lack of a coordinated response from Medicare/CMS to patients being forcibly tapered. 

It is likewise unclear what position state medical and pharmacy boards are taking on the ruptured drug supply chain. Many patients with legitimate prescriptions now have to wait weeks for their medications to become available or are forced to travel to other pharmacies to get their prescriptions filled. Worst of all, the suffering imposed on these patients has done nothing to reduce the number of drug overdose deaths.

Our government must wake up to the fact that the injunction portion of the settlement must be modified.  There are sections of the settlement that allow for “potential adjustments” and “modifications” in the event of a national or state emergency “to meet the critical needs of the supply chain.” Such an emergency now exists.

Future efforts by stakeholders must focus attention on these sections and the need for changes. It is possible to have a safe and well monitored drug supply chain that also allows legitimate patients to have the medical treatment they deserve. As it stands now, patients are needlessly suffering due to the unreasonable restrictions imposed by the national opioid settlement.

Pat Irving, RN, lives with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (now in remission) and piriformis syndrome, a type of sciatica. Pat wishes to thank Monty Goddard, a patient advocate, for his contributions to her research.

What Is End-of-Life Care?

By Dr. Forest Tennant and Kristen Ogden

The Medical Board of California’s new Guidelines for Prescribing Controlled Substances for Pain are futuristic and practical.  They recognize that persons who need intractable pain or “end-of-life” care may often require a non-standard medical program, so the board made these two conditions exempt from any limitations on dosage or treatment.

In our recent column on the guidelines, we clarified the meaning of intractable pain and suggested criteria for identification of the intractable pain patient who requires non-standard drugs and dosages. This column does the same for “end-of-life” care. 

The California guidelines define end-of-life care as “for persons with a terminal illness or at risk of dying in the near future whether in hospice care, hospitals, long-term care or at home.”  Note that this definition does not include palliative care, whose definition is frankly now in limbo, because medical textbooks define it as “symptomatic rather than curative care.” Third party payers only recognize palliative care as being in the last few months of life.

How does one identify a person who needs “end-of-life” care?  California actually has a law which helps identify the person who needs end-of-life care.  Such a person “is suffering from an incurable and irreversible illness that will bring about death within one year if the illness takes its normal course and the treatment is for pain control and/or symptom management rather than to cure the illness.” 

In effect, this definition includes intractable pain patients who are not expected to live more than a year without treatment.  Severe intractable pain, regardless of cause, if left untreated will result in malnutrition, immune deficiency, cardiac or adrenal failure, and a shorter life. 

To our knowledge there are no formal criteria published for clinicians to determine when there exists high risk of death within a year.  Here are criteria used and suggested by us: 

1. Patient has a known disease that may shorten life, such as cancer, adhesive arachnoiditis, head trauma, and Ehlers-Danlos syndromes.

2. Pain is constant and interferes with activities of daily living as reported by a close family member.  Examples are inability to eat, toileting, mobility, hygiene, and dressing.

3. Bed bound and immobile for many hours of each day.

4. Malnutrition, evidence of tissue loss, poor skin turgor (rigidity), and/or weight loss.

5. Family reports inability to normally read, answer questions, or socially respond.

6. Some alterations in normal physiologic functions such as blood pressure, pulse, and hormone levels.

We encourage clinicians to use our criteria for “end-of-life” care or develop some specific alternative criteria.  Too many seriously ill intractable pain patients have been denied care until it was too late.  An “end-of-life” case may begin at any age, be it 14, 40 or 80 years old. 

Many, if not most “end-of-life” patients meet terminus within a year. But some persons turn things around with adequate intractable pain care and live much longer.

Forest Tennant, MD, DrPH, is retired from clinical practice but continues his research on the treatment of intractable pain. The Tennant Foundation gives financial support to Pain News Network and sponsors PNN’s Patient Resources section.  

Kristen Ogden is a patient advocate from Virginia. Kristen and her husband Louis travel regularly to California for his intractable pain treatment and prescriptions, which are not available in their home state.

The Way Forward: California’s New Opioid Guidelines

By Dr. Forest Tennant and Kristen Ogden

The Medical Board of California recently published new guidelines for prescribing opioids and other controlled substances for pain, which emphasize “individualized care” that is customized for each patient. 

The guidelines are a remarkable, positive and practical way forward in pain care. All persons concerned about chronic pain treatment with opioids, benzodiazepines and other controlled drugs need to know the basic concepts embedded in them.    

As the medical board was updating its guidelines, we had great concern that they would bury California’s Pain Patient's Bill of Rights and Intractable Pain Treatment Act. When these laws were passed in the 1990’s, they were a godsend to patients with chronic intractable pain, who were given the right to “request or reject the use of any or all modalities in order to relieve his or her pain.”

That means patients, with the support of their doctors, could get opiate medication without first having to submit to surgery, medical devices and other forms of pain treatment.  

To our great pleasure, the medical board’s new guidelines recognize, define and support these worthy laws.  Importantly, the guidelines also state that they are “not in any way intended to limit treatment” of patients in hospice or palliative care. And they allow for doctors to prescribe high dose opioids, provided they keep good medical records that document a need for them.

Defining Intractable Pain

The California guidelines provide a classic definition of intractable pain as “a state in which the cause cannot be removed or otherwise treated and no relief or cure has been found after reasonable efforts.” 

The problem with this definition is that intractable pain may be mild or intermittent and not curable, but may still be treated with non-opioid modalities. To require and receive treatment with opioids and other controlled drugs, one really needs a specific causative diagnosis of the unremitting “high impact” pain that produces physiologic complications such as hypertension, tachycardia, and endocrine deficiencies. 

Put another way, is intractable pain an incurable but treatable problem? Or is it constant and incurable with potentially life-threatening complications? 

Physicians, as a group, are often mystified, confused and unaware of how to determine which patients have an incurable, but readily treatable problem, and which patients have the constant and incurable pain that causes complications and require opioid therapy.

Physicians need help to make sound, defensible treatment decisions in the face of this quandary.  Some patients with complex intractable pain are greatly impacted and require non-standard treatment, which may include high-dose opioids, benzodiazepines and stimulant drugs. 

Here are the recommended criteria to identify such patients and support non-standard treatment plans.

1. A specific medical cause of intractable pain has been identified.

2. Constant pain has impacted some physiological and/or mental functions such as sleep, eating, hygiene, reading, concentration, and mobility.

3. Trials of standard medications and dosages with such agents as anti-depressants, muscle relaxants, anti-inflammatories, stimulants, anti-seizure medications, and low-dose opioids have not controlled pain or normalized functions.

4. There is objective physical evidence of the causative disease or complications of the pain, such as hypertension, tachycardia, neurologic deficits, or anatomic structural abnormalities.

5. There is an objective, diagnostic test result that documents an abnormality of the cause of pain or its complications, such as a magnetic resonance imaging (MRI), hormone deficiency, elevated autoimmune or inflammatory marker, or an abnormal electrodiagnostic test.

It is the lack of adequate treatment of complex intractable pain that is really the crux of the suffering and deaths that have emerged due to overzealous and misinformed opioid regulations and guidelines.  These legitimate, complex patients comprise about 3 to 5% of chronic pain patients.

The California medical board’s new guidelines provide clinicians the opportunity to implement individualized and effective treatments for these unfortunate and deserving intractable pain patients. 

Forest Tennant, MD, DrPH, is retired from clinical practice but continues his research on the treatment of intractable pain. Dr. Tennant was the lead physician in crafting California’s Intractable Pain Law and Pain Patient Bill of Rights, and worked with the legislature to get them passed. 

Kristen Ogden is a patient advocate from Virginia. Kristen and her husband Louis travel regularly to California for his intractable pain treatment and prescriptions, which are not available in their home state. Kristen testified during public hearings on the California guidelines and closely followed their development. 

The Tennant Foundation gives financial support to Pain News Network and sponsors PNN’s Patient Resources section.  

A Pained Life: Let the Words Flow

By Carol Levy, PNN Columnist

I ended my last column with my favorite saying: “You don't know what you don't know. And if you don't know what you don't know, you don't know what to ask. Our doctors need to ask.”

A couple of days later, I thought about the column and my second appointment with a neuro ophthalmologist, a specialist in nerve disorders that affect the eye.

I didn’t know that my parents were still carrying insurance on me, so I was going to a low-fee clinic in New York City, where I lived at the time.  It took almost a year, but finally one of the residents there decided I had trigeminal neuralgia. Even with a name for my condition, they still didn't have a clue what to do for it. Or with me.

When I realized that I could afford to see a private doctor, I returned to one I had seen years ago.  He referred me to the specialist.

The first appointment did not go well. He told me the disabling, horrendous facial and eye pain I had were caused by anxiety. At the end of the appointment, he patted me on the head, handed me a prescription for an anti-anxiety drug, and sent me home.

I was mad. Another "I dunno" exam that ends with a doctor saying, "It's psychosomatic." I debated if I even wanted to keep the second appointment, but what else could I do?  A feeling I think many of us have.

At the next appointment, I repeated my story of how the pain started, what it felt like, and what it was doing to me.  Again, he was unimpressed. He turned away from me, saying nothing.

Then, just to fill the silence, I said "You know, the other day, for a few seconds, I thought the pain was done and gone."

He abruptly turned back towards me. “What made you think that?” he said, the vehemence in his voice surprising me.

“Well, a lady on the bus inadvertently touched the left side of my face, where the pain is,” I explained. “And the pain didn't start. I was so, so happy. Until about 20 seconds later, when the lightning bolts came.”

The doctor walked over to me, and without missing a beat said, “I think it's time we brought you into the hospital.” I was startled and dumbfounded. In the span of a minute, he went from nonchalant to alarmed. I didn't think to ask why.

I was in the hospital for 52 days. After many tests and workups, they decided I should have brain surgery. The surgeon would cut away the numerous tiny little blood vessels that were wrapped around the part of my trigeminal nerve that gives sensation. The surgery only worked for three months, but it was a glorious three months.

Sometimes, it's the minor things: a change in the way pain feels, a new area of pain, or a change in how and when it happens. We may think, why bother the doctor with this? He won't care anyway. It's unimportant. If I tell him, he may think I'm a dolt or making things up. I’ll keep it to myself.

Which brings me to my second favorite saying: “You don't know what you don't know. And if you don't know what you don't know, how will you know if it matters?” 

Sometimes our deciding what a doctor doesn't need to know may be the one thing he needs to know the most. It may really matter. So let the words flow.

Carol Jay Levy has lived with trigeminal neuralgia, a chronic facial pain disorder, for over 30 years. She is the author of “A Pained Life, A Chronic Pain Journey.”  Carol is the moderator of the Facebook support group “Women in Pain Awareness.” Her blog “The Pained Life” can be found here.

My Story: A Bone Cancer Survivor’s Search for Pain Relief

By Kristen Hernandez

The past three weeks have been the most challenging since my cancer diagnosis 20 years ago. Shortages of opioid pain medication have taken their toll, costing me weeks of productivity, mental and physical anguish, and a negative bank account.

When I was 25, I had a different life -- a career as a corporate travel consultant for RCA Records in New York City. I clawed my way out the ghettos of the Bronx and into corporate America, and purchased my first home in the suburbs of Long Island.

But everything changed when I was diagnosed with an insidious and rare form of bone cancer called Chordoma. It’s a literal one-in-a-million disease, with just one in every million individuals diagnosed with it each year.

The type of Chordoma that chose me is extremely rare, due to the tumor’s location: it was housed inside the L3 vertebra of my lumbar spine. And it was extraordinarily painful.

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Because Chordoma doesn't respond to chemotherapy or radiation, surgery is the only treatment. To save my life, surgeons reconstructed my spine, replacing a vertebra with a titanium cage and filling it with bone graft from my hip.

They also replaced a spinal disc with two more titanium cages, adding 16 rods and 20 screws for reinforcement.

My spine today resembles a nightmarish ladder that Tim Burton might have created.

After eight reconstructive spinal surgeries, I was given a miraculous drug called OxyContin. Doctors did not think I’d ever walk again because they needed to sever the nerves to my legs so that they could remove the cancer-infected bone.

Because of OxyContin, I was able to take my first step and eventually walk. This was in 2005, at the beginning of the so-called opioid crisis.

Once I relocated to Florida, pain management doctors refused to prescribe OxyContin to me, fearing lawsuits and scrutiny from law enforcement. Regardless of how much I protested, I was dismissed as if I was the problem, instead of having a problem.

At the time, pill mills were everywhere in Florida. They were places where if you had cash, you could get any medication. It’s also why there’s a such stigma today against chronic pain sufferers.

Eventually, I found a legitimate pain management doctor in Fort Lauderdale. Instead of OxyContin, he changed my regimen to a fentanyl patch, along with oxycodone/acetaminophen tablets (Percocet) for breakthrough pain, essentially replacing one opioid with two. That was my pain management routine for the past twelve years, until recently.

When I went to a Walgreens pharmacy this past June, I was shocked to hear, “Sorry, oxycodone is on back order, and we have no idea if or when it’s coming back.”

Opioid Shortages

Shortages of oxcodone, hydrocodone and other opioids are increasing around the country. And there is zero advance notice from pharmacies about when a prescribed medication will be available. Patients like me who suffer from severe pain are forced to go through withdrawal until the pharmacy restocks.

It’s a nightmare to deal with. Pain patients are usually not prepared for the sudden halt in medical care. Even the smallest disruption can have devastating effects, such as loss of productivity, reduced quality of life, and a diminished social life. Even smiling takes an effort.

Patients are always the last to know when there’s a problem with a prescription. Like thousands of others, I made frantic phone calls to my doctor, who scrambled to find an alternative medication. Without consulting me, he wrote a script for hydrocodone/acetaminophen (Vicodin), a medication I had never taken before. That’s when my three-week nightmare began. Because I wasn’t prepared to handle the ineffectiveness of hydrocodone for bone pain, my condition quickly began to decline.

Each morning, the first sensation I get feels like someone dug their elbow into my lower back all night long. It’s so fierce, it takes my breath away. Then, when I stand and all the titanium in my spine settles, the nerves hum in my legs and a crawling sensation shoots up and down, vibrating constantly.

As the morning coffee brews, I get the “poke” sensation. Due to a 200-pound weight loss, there’s a rod that sticks out of my thoracic spine area that rubs up against everything -- the bed, couch, office chair, car seat, everything. It’s miserable because it’s there forever.

Hydrocodone/acetaminophen tablets seem to exacerbate those symptoms, causing my body to swell and tighten into a ball of pressure, while the pain intensified. My productivity stopped and the bills began to pile up. Working while experiencing severe spinal and bone pain is nearly impossible.

After a recent candid discussion with my pain management doctor, we formed a “Plan B.” We’re trying oxycodone without acetaminophen to see if that works better. Having a backup plan with an alternate list of medications is essential with the shortages and fear-based drug culture we’ve found ourselves dumped into.

Government regulators and health policies have failed the people who suffer the most in this country, who often live with medical conditions they cannot control, like cancer. They’ve failed us time after time, filing lawsuits and adopting guidelines that make it harder for us to get prescription opioids – even though over 82% of opioid overdoses are caused by illicit fentanyl and other street drugs.

Patients who suffer from chronic pain all have one common goal: relief. When that relief is interrupted, and access to crucial therapies and drugs is denied, you leave us with few choices. We can either live our lives without pain relief or seek out riskier alternatives. Those are not good choices.

Kristen Hernandez is a freelance journalist and creative nonfiction writer living in South Florida. 

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Why Being ‘Strong Enough’ Isn’t Good Enough

By Mia Maysack, PNN Columnist

"It takes so much to be able to get this treatment for myself," I told the nurse, as I was being hooked up for a life-giving infusion.

After answering an inquiry about my arm preference for "a poke," we laugh about needle sticks being the least of my worries, because I am covered in tattoos -- pain I had the privilege of choosing.

A moment of comfortable silence passed and then I proceeded to express my gratitude for being there in that moment. And for still being here on this planet, period.

"You're just so positive! Wow, what amazing energy you have!" the nurse told me.

Me to Me: “I barely made it here today.”

The moments when I feel unable to go on are plentiful. I'm still unsure how to live this life, but as the saying goes, I am "strong enough" and “tough enough” to endure. 

I don't know about that…

I've decided it's perfectly okay to have moments when I'm absolutely not strong enough. Strength of will isn't measurable. Neither is the resilient fortitude that continually gets tested on a daily basis when you have unmanaged and permanent pain.

Me to Her: "Thank you. That’s very kind. There are no words to express how hard I try."

I close my eyes as I feel the tears ascending. I breathe deeply and reflect on a reason, any reason, every reason, to smile.

The first thing I'd tell anybody about “being positive” is that it’s not where strength comes from.  It sounds ideal to seek out bright sides, silver linings and rainbows, but positivity can also be inauthentic and inadequate. At least it has been in my experience.

There’s a difference between pushing through pain, as opposed to masking it. The “fake it until we make it” mentality only takes us so far, and doesn’t actually work when it comes to dealing with pain.

Pain of any kind, I’ve come to believe, is a message that something needs addressing. It’s the body’s way of communicating. Many different issues can arise as a result of this, especially when pain is untreated or its fundamental causes and symptoms are overlooked. Pain will then intensify and worsen, leading to a severely diminished or low quality of life, if not the ultimate decision to put an end to it.

I've had enough years when my ailments would throw occasional tantrums and demand my attention. But that did not change the pain’s existence or ease the constant requirements for attending to it.

I’ve learned that approaching things with a mind-frame of coexistence, as opposed to constantly battling them, works better. There’s less emotion and mental torment, if nothing else. That right there can make a major and empowering shift.

Another thing I’ve decided is that since this is the hand I’ve been dealt, I’m going to play it as absolutely best I can, with a ferocity to make the most of each moment to whatever extent that may be possible. Sometimes this means doing what would appear to be nothing, when in actuality things are healing and restoring.

This realization also means accepting that the pain is going to exist anyway. And things are going to hurt anyway. I no longer reflect upon that as a reason to be strong, but rather as an excuse for celebrating each small victory.  

It takes everything within me to continue existing from one day into another. To function in a meaningful way and contribute somehow to our world.  My life is not as painless as it looks. You may see me living, but miss what it takes for me to live.

Mia Maysack lives with chronic migraine, cluster headache and fibromyalgia. She is the founder of Keepin’ Our Heads Up, a Facebook advocacy and support group, and Peace & Love, a wellness and life coaching practice for the chronically ill. 

My Story: Riding the Merry-Go-Round of Pain Care

By Christopher Matthews, Guest Columnist

About two and a half years ago, I began to feel a tight painful knot on the side of my neck. Any movement would trigger an intense shock up the back of my skull to the top of my head. Ultrasound, MRI and X-ray scans all came back negative, so we tried anti-inflammatory medications, ice, deep tissue message, chiropractic, and some lifestyle changes.

Over the next few months, the pain began radiating to my cervical spine and intensified. No OTC pain medication was touching this pain.  It felt like a hot steak knife was lodged in my back. The constant, unbearable pain and symptoms of neuropathy seemed to indicate that some minor disc bulging in my spine may be more severe than we thought.

It took 4 months to get an appointment with a specialist in neurosurgery at a prominent hospital in Massachusetts. The surgeon looked at me for 5 minutes and ordered more tests. They found some abnormalities in my arms and legs, but the imaging didn’t warrant surgery. They recommended that I see a neurologist, which meant waiting another 5 months for an appointment.

During the interim, my primary care doctor wanted to be proactive. She was the only one taking me seriously. I did physical therapy 3 days a week and about a dozen courses of oral steroids. I was hopped up on cortisone for months. I also had a series of injections into my spine. None of it seemed to help.

I finally saw the neurologist, who ordered another MRI, which showed the bulging discs in my back were getting worse. But I was still not a candidate for surgery.

I’ve now been hospitalized 4 times due to loss of function, pain flares or passing out from pain in public places. The pain is that bad. Some days I can’t even get out bed because my knees won’t work. Some days I have close to no use of my arms, because my elbows are on fire. I’ve been getting more and more bacterial infections.          

My primary care doctor is the only one who believes my pain is real. She showed mercy and set up a pain management contract with me. We started with 5mg hydrocodone/acetaminophen 3 times a day. I had never touched an opiate before in my life. What a relief! I was so happy I could cry, just for a few hours of pain relief.  

I got a second opinion from another neurologist, who ordered more imaging and blood tests. The images came back as they have in the past, but the blood tests also showed there was severe inflammation – a possible sign of autoimmune disease. So off to rheumatology I go. 

After another 5-month wait for an appointment, the rheumatologist orders more blood tests and an in-depth panel for autoimmune disease. Eight of those tests come back elevated and 4 of them are so high they’re alarming. I think to myself, “This may be terrible news or it may be good news. Either way, I’m finally getting a diagnosis.” 

Not even close. I get all these test results sent to me in an app, with a message from the doctor saying everything “looks fine.” He suggests aspirin and ibuprofen, and that I get off the hydrocodone.  

I lost my temper at that point. How dare you insinuate I’m drug seeking! Like I didn’t try every other option first. All those needles driven into my spine, the steroids, and off-label antidepressants. The months of physical therapy, chiropractic and emotional therapy, all before finally resorting to actual pain medication. 

Some of these doctors and pharmacists with their discriminatory attitudes and actions are disgusting. If it was about the drugs, I’d drive 10 minutes into town and buy them at a fraction of the price I pay at the pharmacy.  

This whole ordeal between deductibles and loss of wages has easily cost me over $100,000. I could have done so much with that money. My wife would have her student debt paid off by now. Instead, it all goes into the for-profit healthcare system. We’re not patients, we’re profits.  

Being on opioid medication now for 2 years, I cannot function without them. Without my pain medication, I feel like someone with industrial grade tools is trying to physically remove my head from my neck. 

CVS is a nightmare and the other pharmacies aren’t any better. They give you that look when you walk in or call to check on a prescription: “Oh, it’s you again. We spoke last month. You’re too early. We know why you people do that.” 

Excuse me, but I’m allowed to pick up my medication the day before I am out, so that I have medication available when I wake up the next day. So that I don’t have call you at 9am when you get in and then have to wait until 3 in the afternoon to pick it up. 

For a while, CVS was taking GoodRx coupons, which cut my insurance price in half. Recently, they told me there’s a new state law that prescription coupons were no longer valid for opioids. I checked with the state and no such law exists. The pharmacist does have the right to turn coupons away, but they flat out lied to me and said it was someone else making them do it.   

The number of days I’ve gone into withdrawal with brutal pain I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. All because CVS can’t find the prior authorization or they don’t tell me they are out of stock until I’m at the window to pick it up. Or some other excuse they can drum up. Just so they don’t have to give this “junkie” his drugs. It’s sickening.   

Now, all of a sudden, I can’t get hydrocodone of any dosage at any pharmacy within 50 miles of me. And none of them know when it’ll be back in stock. I found one pharmacy that had a three-week supply of hydrocodone, but by the time I got it called in and got there they said they only had two weeks supply for me because another patient needed a week.  

I’m officially up shirts creek without a paddle and don’t know what to do. I’m in the most pain I’ve ever felt in my life. It is 24/7 and unrelenting. It’s destroying my life, my marriage, my chance at children, my business, and my finances. I get sent from one specialist to another, and at each stop on the merry-go-round they extract $5 to $10 thousand from me in out-of-pocket tests.   

I’m not sure how much longer I can take it.  

Christopher Matthews is a pseudonym for the author, who asked that his full name not be used. He is 35 years old and played 3 years of professional soccer after graduating from college.

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