By Anne Fuqua, Guest Columnist

In 2014, a good friend of mine suffered a heart attack after his opioid pain medications were stopped abruptly. This was despite the fact his records showed that he was a responsible and compliant patient who worked full-time.

Following his death, I started logging the deaths I became aware of on a spreadsheet. Initially, this was just my version of a memorial. I have pain too, and at times wondered if I’m going to wind up on this same memorial.

Every month for the past six years, I have had to add at least one more name to that list, sometimes multiple names. I knew many of these patients and considered them to be my friends.

Some had no quality of life and chose to end their suffering. Some fought to live with all the strength they could muster, but fell to heart attacks, strokes and ruptured aneurysms that occurred after their medication was involuntarily tapered, stopped abruptly or during periods of severe uncontrolled pain. 

For others, the cascade of physiologic changes that help our bodies respond to stress can become harmful in themselves if left unchecked, causing effects that may shorten life even if the person does not suffer one specific event like a heart attack or stroke.

Still others were desperate to live but also desperate to get relief. They went to the illicit drug market when they failed to get the surgery, physical therapy or medication that they felt could improve their quality of life. 

There is a name for abandoned pain patients, left to fend for themselves. Dr. Steve Passik coined the term “opioid refugee” in 2012. Tragically, some of these opioid refugees have died in their quest for relief. They sought relief that would allow them to get restful sleep, enjoy quality time with loved ones, and give them the ability to fulfill responsibilities to their family and society.

CSI Opiods Survey

In 2016, I was fortunate enough to become friends with Dr. Stefan Kertesz, a physician I respect immensely. Dr. Kertesz and his colleague, Dr. Allyson Varley, assembled a team of some of the most respected healthcare providers and thought leaders in the field to advise and support their work. Their goal is to understand what exactly happens when a person with chronic pain dies by suicide. 

After over 2 years of tireless efforts to obtain funding, they have begun a pilot project, a survey of people who have lost someone to suicide. I am helping them understand how to reach out to the people who have lost loved ones. The project has the support of the Department of Medicine at University of Alabama at Birmingham. 

If you would like to know more about Drs. Varley or Kertesz, I would encourage you to Google them so you can see for yourself the quality of their work and their dedication to underserved populations. You may also want to check out Dr. Kertesz’s Tedx Birmingham talk on suicides in the pain community.

Our initial work is a pilot study, We wish to learn how many surviving family members and close friends are willing to come forward and complete a survey after losing a loved one to suicide. For now, we are examining suicides where the patient who died had experienced a change in their opioid medication prior to their death, whether it was decreased, increased or stopped. 

If you have lost a loved one, there are two ways that you can participate. We have a brief online survey you can complete that’s entirely confidential. You can take the survey by clicking here or on the banner below. If you are unable to complete this survey all at once, click “save and return later” and you will be able to save your responses and return to the point you left off at a later time. 

If you would feel more comfortable speaking with someone, you can call toll-free (866) 283-7223. There is no payment for doing the survey. Official study information, approved by a University Institutional Review Board, is online at the survey website.

We may eventually get funding to study other types of deaths. We are asking anyone who has lost a loved one to suicide following a change in opioid dose to consider responding to our survey. If enough people do come forward, it will help to make the case that these terrible losses need to be studied closely, rather than ignored.

I recognize this initial effort has a narrow focus. There are many grieving families who want their loved one’s death to be counted even if it was not a suicide. The way the survey is set up, if you report that the person you lost did not die by suicide, it is going to ask for your contact information. You can provide the research team with your contact information so you can be notified about future studies. 

I still keep my own list of deaths as I learn about them, my memorial. It’s important to know that my list is private. Dr. Kertesz and Dr. Varley do not take names off my list. That’s because university research can only be done with consent. If you have a name for my list, whether they died by suicide or not, contact me and I will add your friend or loved one. I make statistics about the deaths -- but no names -- available to policymakers and patients involved with advocacy work. The list itself will not be made public. 

If you are like me, you are apprehensive about what will happen next. I think most of us are exhausted from the fight for better pain care and desperate for change. Change cannot come soon enough when you are the one who is suffering. This is the first step towards ending needless suffering and loss of life.

Anne Fuqua is from Birmingham, Alabama. She lives with her cat Gabby and has primary generalized dystonia and arachnoiditis.